--i almost almost posted the start of this story, just the dream sequence and phone call, on feb.14 (as a V Day gift to everyone~). i thought i'd post that up and then wait a long while till i continue posting...i thought i'd be done with the story soon after the ningen premiere. but wow, i was SO WRONG. lol. luckily i changed my mind (and thanks, paige, for also saying i shouldn't rush it)!! xD
--this is really amazing!! just today, saw that 1st pic i posted in the story. the pinkish sunset. it's overlooking a river and not the sea, but still!! almost exactly what i imagined...so pretty and sugoi that i just saw it today, be4 posting this up!! really!! wow.....arigatou!!
--wasn't it funny that i was thinking who's the idiot interupting my dream, and it turns out to be toma?? lol. i just thought it was so hilarious that i'm dreaming about him, and the real him calls and i'm actually kinda mad. lol!!!!!!! xD
-----actually, this time i've posted a lot of my thoughts/comments after each update already, so this post will not be that long like the last few times.....but i will still add some more comments here later, i think.......
------here are some pics of 1 of the many pages of my messy notes, with sketches on some of them. lol. i like to sketch little drawings next to my notes sometimes to remember what i want to talk about...and also a pic of the page right after i finished the end of the story back in january. i'm just editing now...trying to add some special stuff to the ending....the original ending is so short and too quick.... (i wrote on that page, that i was listening to ikemen boogie nights, as i finished writing the story)
--coincidences.....
i was writing about the premiere night on the day that i read news about the first preview screening from the previous night!! and i was writing about watching his documentary show and then that day, got to see the super short preview for that show!! ^^
--a song from years ago that i like...just recently happened to watch the MV after so long....used to think it was about his girlf dying soon, but no, it's just she's thinking of leaving him cuz their long distance relationship is too hard to maintain??? awww...it's a sweet sweet MV!!! it's nice to know what the song really means... nanka...the touching lyrics and thinking of my story...like this is how i would really feel if i really had a long distance relationship with toma....made me cry!
in many ways, it goes with my story perfectly.... sugoi~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sLaZpuF0Xy8
[Lee Hom - Kiss Goodbye (English & Pinyin Subtitles)]
--paramore's brick by boring brick song.♥ she lives in a fairytale....
i LOVE LOVE LOVE this song!!!!!! and i really really relate to the lyrics, about wanting to live in a fantasy world. especially, since i have been like, in this dream world where i am toma's girlf since december 2009. wow.....i've been in and out of it, but wow.....it's become a little addictive. i hate it when i can't think of something to write. but when i do come up with good ideas and i'm really really deep in my fantasy world....ahhh....it's really amazing and cool and sweet and everything.... *_* and even if it's not real, sometimes i can feel it with all my heart....completely!!
it's funny that this song is about how u've gotta leave this imaginary world behind though....but i'm still in this fairytale, i can't leave yet!! i need to finish the story. and unlike this song, this fairytale is really so sweet and lovely......but i know i'll have to leave this world for a long time after i'm done writing this time, cuz i've run out of ideas and it's so time-consuming to write. lol. but i'll definitely return to this dream sometime in the future ne.....i look forward to that day!!
so go get yr shovel.
and we'll dig a deep hole.
we'll bury the castle, bury the castle....
(not yet though....)
[writing this on feb.27. desperately trying to finish writing additional parts/changes to the story. I'LL FINISH THIS STORY EVEN IF IT KILLS MEEEEEEEEEE!! LOL. KIDDING..... I'LL GET IT DONE ASAP THOUGH!!!!!!!!! OR I'LL....I DUNNO. ANYHOW, GAMBARIMAS!!!!!!!!]
---[thanks to jay's pretty music f/Secret....gotta watch this movie sometime. lol. only seen the MV and read about the plot....]
ah, jay's movie really had a lot of nice music (of course! lol.)
my fav is Angel. and of course, love his A Secret I cannot tell song. really beautiful music that i just recently remembered that i really like....thanks to this music, it really helped me get in the right mood to write for the watching the movie/what i thought afterwards, and other romantic scenes.....arigatou gozaimashita!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pypcMQpP6ac&feature=related
[the 1st 3 tracks, it makes u feel many different emotions .... listened to this a lot when trying to imagine how i feel while/after watching ningen..... =)] [tracks titles: Opening, Bicycle, and Morning Exercise]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pypcMQpP6ac&feature=related
[ending music + a secret i cannot tell.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SDRLvTmpN44&feature=related
[Angel (from jay chou's movie, Secret's soundtrack)
--i feel more inspired to write when the weather here is also cold/rainy like in my fanfic. lol. luckily, these days it's cold again....i need it to be....so i can edit/add to my ending!!
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---FINALLY GOT A CHANCE TO READ PART OF THE RECOMEN FROM FEB.18. LOL. some really nice coincidences....some things that toma talked about with the guys...are things that i talked about in my fanfic!!!
.toma talked about how his dream is to go to the movie theatre, buy a ticket, and watch his own movie. he's only watched ningen at the special screenings and at home!!
.toma joked about how he's never seen rain or snow, because he's always indoors then. when he's outside, it gets sunny, cuz he's a sunshine boy. xD
---eason's old song, "eliminated". this song is so sad....even be4 i knew what it meant, just listening to it....so much angst and sadness....it really...touched me... it's a really good song!! u should try listening to it: http://www.youtube.com/kate6002#p/f/19/XmXemtFGwGc
the MV is really touching too! eason's face...so sad, emotional, tired....knowing she won't give him a chance....i only remember some1 told me, it's a song about how his girlfriend is breaking up with him....she won't give him a chance, so it's like he's "eliminated" from her life...he's not good enough....
though it's a sad song, but i really listened to it quite a lot while writing this fanfic.....it gives me the feeling of....wanting to be with someone so badly, loving them so much, yet you can't be together for some reason....hai....i guess that's why it fits in with my fanfic....our long distance relationship....i listened to it a lot when writing the ending, too... *cries* they're even running on a pretty tree-lined path in the MV, too!!!
---i thought of having us see a traditional japanese wedding at the meiji shrine (which often happens during weekends). but...nah. those weddings seem a little boring and quiet. and i think it's enough hinting that we're gonna get married someday. lol.
---------MY FAVORITE MOMENTS...
(***SPOILERS***)
there's too many, i can't list them all, so i'll just pick my fav sweet moment. and my fav hot moment. lol.
fav sweet moment: i think it has to be when toma says "skida yo" and nuzzles, cuddles me...sleeping so closely together....ahhh.
fav hot moment: LOL. well, starting from sitting between his legs...all the way to when my stomach starts hurting. yappari.... (>////<) kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
-----------------THOUGHTS ABOUT THE ENDING:
(***SPOILERS***)
----it was really cool, how this fanfic started with toma proposing to me in the dream, and it also ended with him proposing, kinda. ~_~ SUGOI.... i totally didn't plan for him to kinda propose, but when he was talking about kyoto...i got this feeling...and it just happened. and i knew since i'm so sleepy, he'd tell me again later...at the end of the fanfic. yeyyyyyy.♥
---YATTA!!!!!!
I DID IT!!!!!!!!
I FINISHED!!!!!!!!!
SO IT TOOK ME FROM AROUND JAN.15 TO ARIL 8. WOW.
AROUND 3 MONTHS. MARCH WAS THE MONTH WHERE MOST OF THE STORY, THE FINAL DRAFT, WAS THOUGHT UP THOUGH.....MARCH IS NOW OFFICIALLY MY FAV MONTH OF THE YEAR. LOL.......CUZ IT'S WHEN I....GOT THOSE FEELINGS, WHEN THINKING OF TOMA AND I........ (>/////<) AND CUZ I GOT SO MANY LOVELY, SWEET SCENES WRITTEN IN MARCH.....
-----(after re-reading the ending) it's finally sinked in...this is the end....and i feel all these strong emotions that the kate in the fanfic feels......i feel it so strongly right now...the tears keep coming... =,(
---that part, "i finally understand", i kinda got from lee hom's Kiss Goodbye song, the line was something like, "and at this moment, i finally understand, the true taste of love.
-------------THOUGHTS ABOUT WRITING THIS FANFIC, IN GENERAL....
--THIS IS THE 1ST TIME I'M WRITING 2 FANFICS CONSECUTIVELY. AND THIS FANFIC #3, IT LASTS 4 DAYS!! THE PREVIOUS 2, EACH WAS ONLY, LIKE HALF A DAY!! NO WONDER THIS TIME, I WAS LIKE....WOW, THIS IS REALLY FREAKING HARD, TO WRITE SO MUCH!!! xD but somehow, i filled in all the time......and this is the first fanfic i wrote not during xmas time!
--our relationship got so serious, after just 2 months of dating! lol. but like i said in 1 of my comments...it feels like we've known each other for a much longer time, and i've loved him for years already so....that's why. hmm~ [and partly cuz i dunno when i can write the next fanfic, so i wanted to squeeze in as much special moments as i could, and make sure u see how we really love each other so much.]
--like i was telling paige when i was writing it back in january.....i was afraid at first....that this fanfic would be hard to write, cuz there's no more suspense, the "does he like me or not?" feeling is no longer here. and i was afraid of repeating myself...all the doki doki and kyaaa-ing.
BUT, since we're now a couple, the advantage is we can kiss and hug and touch a lot~ and talk about anything...xD of course, there's still got to be some shyness between us, but i mean....since we're a couple, there's so much more things we can do together. heehee. ~_~ and i love how we're so much more comfortable and relaxed when we're together now...ahhh...and cuz we're dating...all the phone calls, texts, flirting, etc., too... sweet.
--i notice...my writing is improving? kinda? or maybe it's cuz each fanfic, the situations are kinda different. but looking back, i felt like the 2nd fanfic was A LOT, A LOT of talking...but of course, still so many sweet moments....the 1st fanfic was......umm.....i tried to put too much things in it...i dunno how to put it....but it didn't seem as natural, it felt awkward sometimes, our conversations.........
of course, now my fav fanfic is this one, the third one!!! haha. there's not as much talking (was there? not sure...we did talk about ningen a lot, though.), and more hugging and kissing. lol. like the song says..."a little less conversation, a little more action, please". xD maybe i overdid it, the parts in the hotel room, though....oh well. it felt right to me at the time, but maybe i was not thinking straight, cuz i was feeling so....(>////<)
THANK YOU, EVERYONE FOR READING MY FANFIC!!!!!♥
THANK YOU, EVERYONE, FOR COMMENTING!!!!!!!♥
I REALLY PUT MY HEART AND SOUL INTO IT, AND I'M REALLY PROUD OF IT. IT TOOK YOU AROUND 1 MONTH TO READ THE WHOLE THING, BUT IT TOOK ME AROUND 3 MONTHS (well, i worked on it on and off) TO WRITE IT!! but really....it's all worth it. i'm happy that my fanfic could make some of you so happy, that some of you looked forward to my update everyday~ and i really had a lot of fun writing it. well...sometimes it wasn't so fun, but it really was mostly fun!! lol. ahhh, so many sweet, touching, fun, *hot* moments with toma......♥
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